Seize Me (28 page)

It’s been three days since I’ve talked to my uncle and he released my money. As per our agreement with the lawyers, they are not responsible or liable for any future lawsuits because they released my money early. I needed someone to sign in that place and to my shock, my uncle did. It’s a shock because if my mother were to ever come around, ever find this out, and be angry about it, he would be responsible for paying back what I spent between those years.

I imagine this is why he made me agree to one holiday a year. He wants to be able to find me and still know everything there is to know about me. I don’t blame him. It’s a lot of money. I have access to Lana’s account and I have donated her trust fund that to an advocate program for victims of violence. I obviously did the donation through her stage name. Victims who receive care and treatment will think of the woman named Hazel who helped changed their life. That is the best feeling in the world. I know deep down it was the right thing to do. I know I would have her complete blessing on it too.

Braxxon is out on club business or so he says. He didn’t take anyone with him and that’s not like him when he’s out on club business. I trust him. I really do. It’s just that he’s up to something and I can’t figure out what it is. Ever since our conversation the other day, I’ve been on edge that he’s gonna end up leaving me. I know he will never cheat on me now that we’ve said I love you, but he will leave me if he feels it’s better for me and that’s one scary feeling to have.

My love for him is so deep and so powerful it alone owns me.

Tatiana graduated yesterday and it was so touching to be able to share that with her. It was a piece of normality that I needed. The fact that I’m still sane is a miracle. This has been the roughest year of my life. I hope the chaos and bad shit stays in this year too and leaves my future alone.

I’m sitting on the couch in the community room surfing through spas on my laptop. I want to give Tatiana a spa weekend with Berry for her graduation. I want Berry to be the one to take her because I feel like Berry could use it. She lost her husband and she has been so good to me; she deserves some R&R.

“Winter,” Rap says walking up to me. “Someone’s at the gate saying she’s Tatiana’s mother. I can’t find any of the brothers and you’re the only ol’ lady around. I’m getting ready to call ZZ, but this bitch is persistent.”

“Shit. Okay. Call ZZ and I’ll hold her off,” I say closing my laptop. “Just like any other day, nothing but drama. How much longer you got left, Rap?”

He smiles. “Just one month.”

I hope they vote him in. He sure as hell deserves it.

“Good. All right, is this woman hostile? Do I need my gun or anything?”

I’m only half kidding. Just half though.

“I don’t think so…,” he trails off.

“Okay.”

I take my phone with me and text Braxxon as I walk. Even though Rap is calling ZZ, I still think Brax needs to know.

His response was as I thought it would be. Nothing but a string of curses followed by I’m on my way. He never puts spaces between his curse rants when they’re via text and it makes me smile every time because I can just hear his voice actually doing it.

I reach a pretty, blonde woman who looks exactly like Tatiana and is no doubt her mother. She frowns as I approach.

“Where’s my daughter?”

Great, she’s hostile.

“You’ll have to wait for ZZ,” I respond.

“Is that his fucking name now? I haven’t seen him since he lied about his damn age so I’d fuck him.”

This I already know.

“Well yeah. Anyways, he’s on his way and so is Braxxon.”

“Ah, I wonder what Braxxon looks like nowadays. He was so handsome as a teenager.”

Is this child leaving bitch serious?

“He’s still handsome and he’s not available.” I laugh at her.

“No need to get your panties in a twist.” She grins a fake grin.

Just one damn day, it’s always something.

“For me to get my panties in a twist, I would have to be wearing some.”

Take that, you abandoning bitch. Yes, I know I have abandonment issues; I don’t hate my mother. In fact, I love her even though I don’t know her. My father wouldn’t let her take me with her and I know she at least tried. But that subject is still a sore one for me.

ZZ comes rip roaring past us into the compound on his bike and barely has it throttled down and on its kickstand before he makes his way over to the gate where I won’t allow her to enter.

“Mira, what the hell do you want?” ZZ yells.

“Well look at you. Don’t you look delicious?” she coos.

“Cut the shit woman. I haven’t spoken to you in over sixteen years and even then, you didn’t ask about my daughter.”

“I seen the news. How is my daughter?”

“Your daughter? She has never been your daughter, Mira. You didn’t raise her. In fact, do you even know her birthday?” He smirks.

She doesn’t answer and that pisses me off. How in the hell could you forget a date that important. A day you bring another life into the world?

“Dad.” Tatiana walks up to us with Berry at her side.

“Fuck,” he groans.

Why does everyone have such bad timing around this place?

“Hello Tatiana. I’m your mother, Mira.”

“No you’re not. Berry is my only mother,” Tatiana hisses.

“Don’t be silly darling; that woman is your grandmother, nothing more.”

Oh, shit. Where the hell is Braxxon?

“ZZ hunny, you better get this twat out of here before I do something that’ll land me in the gray barred motel,” Berry says calmly.

“My pleasure, Mom.” He smirks, grabbing her elbow and escorting her over the threshold to the compound. He then releases her arm, and walks back over the threshold and enters the code to shut the gate.

“Well that was pleasant,” I joke.

“That dumb bitch.” ZZ shakes his head. “Tatiana you’re eighteen and can do whatever you want but that woman abandoned you because she didn’t want a kid. I hope you make the right decision when it comes to her. She will be back.”

“I want nothing to do with her dad,” Tatiana answers evenly in a serious tone.

“Good,” he replies as the gate reopens. Braxxon enters and he’s on foot. I didn’t even notice his bike was here.

“You walked,” I ask him.

“Yeah I did. Just because I’m a biker doesn’t mean I have to ride it every single time I leave. I saw Mira leave. Did everything go well?”

Well snap my head off why don’t you.

“Baby, don’t look at me like that. I just didn’t wanna ride today. I took a cab because of the reporters and shit. I didn’t want people following me today. My bike is easy to spot.”

“Okay,” I reply still not happy with his answer.

“Everything went just fine, Prez. But she will be back,” ZZ says before walking Berry and Tatiana away.

“C’mon Angel, let’s go to Sated for a bit. You haven’t been back since opening night last week.”

I look down at my clothes and deem them wearable for my club. Hell it wouldn’t matter anyway. It’s Lana’s club and mine. God I miss her. If I didn’t have Braxxon, I don’t think I could survive this. I’d get too lonely.

“Yeah okay.” I take his outreached hand as we walk towards his bike.

“I wasn’t giving you an option baby.” He laughs.

“Watch it, Breaker,” I tease.

The club is quiet and empty, not because there’s no business but because it doesn’t open until five tonight. Braxxon is quiet and in thought. I’m a bit worried as he sits me on the edge of one of my pole stages. He says he’ll be right back and I watch as he walks to the bar and pours him two shots of whiskey and downs them. Okay, so now I’m very worried. He wipes his palms on his jeans as he walks back over to me and kneels down on one knee, pulling a box out of his pocket as his gray eyes latch onto me.

Oh god.

“Winter Belov, I love you with every damn part of my soul, body, mind, and heart. I can’t imagine my life without you and I don’t ever want to. You’re my Angel in my hell and I need you. I know that may seem weak in other’s eyes, but I don’t care. All I care about is what you think. Others don’t matter. I don’t want you worried that one day I’m going to up and leave you, because baby, I can’t. I wouldn’t be able to breathe if I did. Ever since that day you danced into my life, I’ve done nothing but breathed your air. I’d suffocate without you. I know this isn’t a world you wanted to be in, but I’m begging you, stay in it with me. Marry me, have babies with me, and grow old with me.”

Oh my god!

Winter is just looking at me with tears in her eyes and I know I’m holding my breath waiting for her answer. She isn’t saying anything and I wonder if I’ve just ruined everything by doing this too soon. Her gold eyes water up even more as they take hold of me and she gets up off the stage and kneels down in front of me.

“I’ll be your Angel in your hell,” she says smiling.

I let my breath out in a rush as I shakily take the ring out of the box and slip it onto her finger. She throws her other hand over her mouth laughing and that makes me think I screwed something up.

“How did you get someone to cut diamonds into small wings so fast.” She laughs even more through her hands.

“Do you not like it?”

“Braxxon I love it. I just know that it takes time to have diamonds cut, that’s all,” she says as she drops her hand from her mouth.

“I went and ordered it three days ago. Everyone works fast enough if the money is right.”

They looked at me strangely when I told them I wanted small diamond wings one each side of the large diamond. It kinda pissed me off to be honest. I mean I was paying for it so why the fuck did it matter.

“It fits us,” she whispers admiring it.

“It does.”

“I love you,” she says looking up at me.

“Good because...,” I say before studying my next words in my head again, not wanting to mess them up. “Vy skhuatili menya.”
“You’ve seized me.”

She gasps then tackles me. “Zaymis’ so mnoy lyubov’yu,” she purrs.

“Don’t get cocky. I just learned that tiny sentence.”

“I said… make love to me,” she whispers before nipping on my lip piercings.

“Did you honestly think I would allow you to walk away with that ring on your finger without giving me your pussy first?”